Pulse – New View From Other Side of the Line


The first “big” news story I covered took place in South Carolina. A 23-year old mother of two reported a carjacking with her kids still in the backseat. There were a handful of journalists on the scene that first night, all of them local.

The following morning, multiple languages were being spoken on the streets of a tiny town reminiscent of Mayberry. Media from around the world were fast descending on the small community of Union, as the search for the missing boys intensified.

Nine days later, at a hastily gathered press conference, the local sheriff announced the arrest of Susan Smith, who admitted driving her Mazda into a nearby lake and drowning her young children.

“This is the biggest story I’ll ever cover,” I thought to myself, as I watched her husband, David, sobbing and stumbling his way down a sidewalk, leaving his sons’ funeral service. The church door behind him stood open with just enough space to see a tiny white coffin, in which both boys lay.

During that week, as the story unfolded, the line between “thinking personally” and “covering professionally” was being drawn in pencil. One minute I was gathering news; the next, I was participating in it. Walking with volunteers through wooded searches, and helping attach posters of the missing boys to telephone poles, I was connected to the story, erasing and redrawing the journalistic boundaries as I desired. Because I struggled with the conflicting forces, it was a relief to go home when my job ended. I left the damage and brokenness behind me.

For the next 20 years, most of that with NBC News, I learned to reinforce that barrier while in front-row seats to stories on the world stage: ground zero for 9-11, the Middle East for the Gulf War, and Hurricane Katrina in New Orleans. In between, there were school shootings, hostage standoffs and high-profile rating juggernauts, like the search for Natalee Holloway and the murder trial of Casey Anthony. Buffered by the lens of my camera, I was mastering the disconnect that kept me at arm’s length. That pencil-thin line I learned to draw in Union County was now being scrawled with a thick, black marker.

A lot had changed for me, as I followed reports of the shooting at Pulse nightclub in the early hours of June 12. Having long since left the daily grind of television news, I wasn’t seeing the tragedy as potentially “the biggest story I’ll ever cover,” because I wasn’t going to be covering it. I was experiencing the events with my neighbors, colleagues and friends. Attending a vigil, not because of a press release, but drawn to it by a desire to support my reeling city.

In a crowd of nearly 10,000, I was standing with mourners instead of working media. It was unfamiliar territory, searching for my own opinion instead of sound bites. That journalistic barrier, no longer relevant, meant the lines I’d once drawn had faded.

There’s a sad playbook news organizations resort to when covering these “big” stories, and we’re now turning to an important page, where content within the 24-7 news cycle suddenly shifts. As the chaos subsides, and the search for understanding begins, the pressure to find something new can be a catalyst for speculation, exaggeration and potential manipulation. Some reporters searching for different angles enlist questionable “talking heads” who come out of nowhere. Others prey upon the vulnerability of those trying to escape unwanted attention.

A certain amount of personal intrusion is necessary for journalism in the public interest. When judicious, we can contrast the authentic and relevant from the counterfeit: the heart-felt pleas from loved ones, as opposed to self-indulgent opportunists leveraging a spotlight for their own purpose.

Experiencing this tragedy with my city, instead of covering it for the news, reminded me that these stories are not merely assignments with deadlines; they’re opportunities. They are glimpses into real lives that will continue to play out long after the headlines have changed, and the media have moved on.

While working, I created lines to divide me from the people I met in my stories, thinking it was better if we all stayed on our respective sides. But this tragedy brought that issue home and into clearer focus. Maybe we can’t change the playbook overnight. But we can change the way we draw our lines, allowing wisdom and compassion to cross over.

In The Bullpen

I just turned 45.

As is typical around this time of year, I think about the friends I grew up with. How easy it was to hang out with them. Easy, because the only real responsibility we had back then was deciding whose turn it was to steal the Bartle’s & James from a parental refrigerator. We’d gather at the edge of the woods, smashing the neck of each bottle with a rock. Drinking our flavored pomegranate daiquiris, while spitting out the tiny shards of glass that always seemed to remain afloat. We discussed the important things in life: Rock n’ Roll, girls and baseball.

Nowadays, my friends and I carve out time together around chiropractic procedures. My AC/DC songs have been replaced with Miles Davis tunes. The girls we talk about are usually our daughters, how each year we’d get ignored just a little bit more at the Father/Daughter dances.

Baseball is still mentioned. Although, that’s usually to complain about overly excessive contracts of underperforming infielders. Oh, and no more hiding in forests while drinking wine coolers, either.  These days, my friends and I prefer the inky dark colors and bold tannins of an aged Malbec. Or nestling ourselves in the comfort of plush, leather chairs while sipping frothy lattes, snickering at the baristas sporting two haircuts, and prattling on about the harmful effects of the pink and blue packets of Splenda. Last week we spent half an hour arguing over who had the most accurate blood pressure reading booths: CVS or Walgreens?

Yes, “father time” is cruel. But his callousness for creeping up without warning is simply unacceptable. And I find it more than a little alarming that I can not only spell sciatica, I can point to it and describe its varying degrees of pain in great detail.

Sure, my friends and I wake up with a crick in our necks. Occasionally, we squint to read signs. People call us “sir!” and we’ve been known to use – from time to time – our iPhone lights to read menus. We talk far too much about portfolios and mortgages and too little about the importance of marshmallows in a bowl of cereal. Eating pizza isn’t as much fun as it was when we were kids, either. Probably because we have to pay for it now – in cash, carbs and saturated fat.

But just like that inky Malbec, there’s a difference between being aged and being old. I had the chance to test that theory not long ago at a private event at Busch Stadium in St. Louis. Standing atop the pitching mound in the Cardinal’s bullpen, I closed my eyes … breathed in the moment … made my stretch … and delivered a perfect strike to the Cardinal’s catcher waiting 60 feet 6 inches away.

My shoulder felt a little sore after I threw, and my elbow tinged slightly. But I hadn’t bounced the ball. I may have been a little rusty on the mound, but I wasn’t old. I wasn’t even aged. Standing there … smiling at my accomplishment, I heard laughter. The hundreds who gathered behind me waiting for their turn to pitch had watched me throw a perfect strike. They’d also read the radar gun. It was flashing “29 mph” in bright red.

I only got one pitch in that bullpen. But just like these past 45 years it was only a warm up. I’ll throw harder next time. And when I do, I’ll have my friends with me. My arm might still be rubbery, but I have every confidence the radar gun will match my age. After, of course, I eat my own personal Breakfast of Champions: Count Chocula with extra marshmallows.

Prague’s Hotel Aria: An Orchestrated Original

I travel a lot. And while I’m not a proponent of spending a great deal of money for a hotel, I certainly enjoy the amenities of five-star lodging. Especially if the client is paying for it. I prefer instead, to eat and drink my way around a town. After all, it’s just a warm bed, soft pillow, and a state-of-the-art gym I’ll never use. But every now and again I stumble onto a place that not only piques my interest, but has me eating, drinking, and enjoying myself without ever leaving the grounds. Aria Hotel in Prague is one such place.


Located in the historical center of Mala Strana, just three minutes walk to both the Charles Bridge and Prague Castle, Aria is a 5-star musically-themed complex re-built nearly 15 years ago. But thanks to architects Rocco Magnolia and Lorenzo Carmelite, who are best known for working alongside fashion legend Gianni Versace, this elegant hotel feels as if it’s been in existence for centuries.


Aria has curated a concept for a wide array of musical tastes: 51 suites, with each room dedicated to a specific style of music or artist with original artwork, books, Apple TV, and an iPad. The stylized icons range from classical and contemporary, to rock, opera, jazz, and blues. There’s a Billie Holiday room, a Mozart suite, even Elvis and The Rolling Stones have a space waiting for you.

Downstairs in the lobby, Dr. Ivana Stehlikova, the Aria Music Director greets every guest. With a PhD in Musicology, Dr. Stehlikova offers guidance on the various musical events that can be found throughout the city. Wander the lobby and you’ll find the Music Library, where you can browse through thousands of CD’s. Pull one off the shelf, hand it to the concierge, and the lobby will soon be filled with sounds of your musical choice.


There’s a private screening room, a music salon, and CODA, a rooftop terrace restaurant with world class cuisine and a 360 degree view of the city. But perhaps the most stunning of all was the Vrtba Garden, Prague’s oldest Baroque Garden and a UNESCO World Heritage site. An ideal setting for weddings or just a stroll along the manicured pathways.


Aria Hotel is a perfect blend of music and luxury that will have you singing. Even outside of the shower. It’s a place I will, most certainly, stay at again. And who knows? Maybe next time I’ll even take advantage of that gym.